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I’ve returned to post I’ve become a mother again to two small grey sons, I’ve named them Liam & Noel and they are perfect grey angels. Also I can never use my bathroom sink again.

I know it’s been awhile since I posted but I’ve had yet another terrible life event & I need to vent anywhere I can: my precious Queen Pussy, my beautiful puss daughter whom I’ve had since she was a baby herself, died this morning at 6am. She was recovering from an emergency spay after having an infection & was recovering well until she apparently meowed, threw up blood, and collapsed dead in her cage. My heart is completely broken & I wish I could die along with her. How does one deal with the loss of a first & only child??

What made it even more fucked up is I hooked up with a guy last night & I got to receive the call about my dead daughter whilst still in bed with him. He has a car & drove me to the vet clinic & watched me as I sobbed over her body. It was nice to have someone there though at least.

Okay so: there’s this record store venue in town that I very seldom go to, where I am now, and shortly after any time I’ve arrived the Stoned & Dethroned album by Jesus & Mary chain starts playing, including tonight, and now I’m deadass starting to wonder if it’s cos of me since the owner/dude who controls the music knows I like them oof

In good news, I finally have a britpop/early punk DJ gig booked. On the 26th which is soon. I’ll be in my element! Britpop & punk, punk & britpop, that is me! I’ll still be playing post-punk & new wave too of course, that is a given, but finally I can include britpop & punk.

Can’t wait to hear Listen Up by Oasis on the big speakers. I actually played Pulp when I DJ’d the goth fest back in April lol but it was the song Refuse to Be Blind which is weirdly Bauhaus sounding so don’t think anyone knew the difference. Sneak level 100.

So lately (like for 2 months now) ive been going to pretty much nothing but local Punk shows & its funny since I’ve still been listening to almost exclusively Britpop lately hahaha I mean the 2 are kinda connected? pretty sure Britpop wouldn’t exist without the Sex Pistols. ANYWAY I am seeing the Damned tonight & I was invited to hang in a pub beforehand with some punk show acquaintances. I am Nervous but I still want to go hang with them because my now-ex will be at that show so being alone wouldnt be ideal. Also I need some new friends so this may be a good way of making them. 

I’ve returned to this blog to tell y’all I went to a goth/80s rave last night until 6am & my friends n I took E for the first time in my life (3 pills) and apparently everyone else there were on that same E as well & holy fuck….

In other news, I read today that for all the upcoming Noel Gallagher UK shows, if you don’t have photo ID that matches the name on the ticket, or if you’ve forgotten your photo ID, you aren’t let in, and electronic tickets are non-transferrable. I completely understand preventing scalpers & touts & whatnot but Jesus this is over the top. This honestly pisses me off since this also means that a person can’t buy a ticket as a gift for another person without the person who purchased it attending as well. It also means that friends who can no longer attend can’t just pass the ticket along to another friend. If this was indeed Noel’s decision to do this than I guess this is the nasty rockstar behaviour our Lord LG has been telling us all along. Tsk tsk. Just let people attend your shows Noel, Christ.

I’ve officially had a boyfriend for an entire month now with no red flags or any awkwardness. I believe I may finally know what it’s like to be in a healthy relationship. EXCEPT next week he is leaving on tour until the end of May with one of his bands to FINLAND (of all the places to tour) and I might die since I haven’t experienced the whole musician-bf-going-on-long-tour thing since 2010 & I’ve forgotten what it’s like. It’s not even a long tour, only 2 weeks. But he doesn’t have an FB & the only contact will be thru email. At least I can stalk his bands page in sorrow while he’s gone (which is run by his bassist) but still. Ahhhh.

I’m into the 3rd night of this post punk fest in Portland & hoooooo boy the amount of Stephen Morris wannabe drummers thatve played so far holy hell. Bless em.

As of today I am 28 years of age therefore I am now practically staring 30 in the face RIP